To be or not to be..

Today ma, isk & myself went to the ratib at N's. First thing first, N maamaa asks me whether I can become a gynae. All of them seem to be so confident that I'll do really well for my As and get into medcine then be a doctor! I really wish I'll not let them down. Like what I've mentioned before in my earlier post, sometimes i just wish i did not do so well in my Os. When I think forward until like next next year(2009) when I'm collecting my results, I dun wanna look at it and cry. I must do well and make my mum proud. I know she wants me to do well. I hope L'LL not let her down too.

Next!!! N's mum siad I've put on weight after going JC!!!! ARGH!!!!!! That really sucks. I hate to know I've put on weight and that I'm fatter than someone else. That's one of the last things any girl wants to hear. That leaves me nowhere right? So yeah, what's wrong if I get upset?? So please, if you're someone I know, you KNOW what not to tell me!!!

Treasure What You Have. =)

2007 has been rather hectic for me. I've been through a complicated maze that now i don't know where I stand now. It can be in terms of relationship problems (with my peers and family members maybe?) and also about how i struggled to cope with my academics. My so-called "relationship problems" are not as complicated as they seem to be. It's not like I end up quarelling or come to blows with my friends.
I am worried rather- that my sucky attitude if that's what you call it. Being too frank with them (with my JC frens) I thought will make us closer. I mean friends must not hide anything or leave any anti-feelings unknown. I know I wasn't like that in hss or even in yj. It's just in JJ!

I wish I weren't that kind of person from the start. It seems too late to even regret. Hope the new year will see a new me. I've always felt that I didn't treasure my bestest of the best friends in secondary sch back then. I shall not repeat my mistake again. I still have one last year to make amendments.

This thought didn't dawn on me until recently, when I attended the most enlightening and life-changing dialogue. It was an assignment I got from Tamil Murasu where me and a group of friends were interns for CONSEQUENT 9 days(we "pon" work on one day so that makes the actual working days to be 8). The 1st group were doing on the drama "Thondan" which Mr Vadi PVSS had done. The 2nd group were covering the Standard Chartered Marathon 07 while ours was an inter-faith dialogue held in NTU (It was held for 3 days - 7-9dec). Ours was the longest event for your information.

We didn't think much of the event at first but only after we attended it did we know that it was a meaningful event. I'm kinda bragging right? I'm just talking crap I think.. but more of such events need to be held cos i wanna see if more youths share the same comments? Maybe?