Saturday, January 31, 2015

Looking back on 2014

Its one month before I pulled myself from the clutches of procastination to do this up.
Better late than never I guess.

2014 was the year of the horse. My year. :D Yes, I was (still am) 24.
Nothing much and no tremendous changes happened this year.
But I still had some events I wish to log so that I could look back and reminisce later.

If I am not mistaken, I got confirmed in DBS in the first few months of 2014.
What a feat passing probation after 9 months. Hahaha! I still did and that's what matters.

And I got my first ever performance bonus from my first full time job!
It was pro-rated but its still good to have. I'll get my full bonus next year! :D:D

Then May 5, 2014 another addition to the family.
The third nephew to join the little ones #mylittleimps
He is named Naufal which means 'Generous Leader'.
The little one is like 9 months now and he has just begun to stand up holding on to things.
He can clap when instructed too. He's too active until I can take it no more.

Oh and then... It was my block leave in June. And I managed to take my parents and bro out to Bintan.
It was just a 2D1N deal from the deal website.But it was like my first time planning things..
Like I decided the hotel. I booked it. I made arrangements. And I spent for the trip! Felt so good about it because I've always wanted to do it. But I regret not spending more. Not sure if they felt like they were travelling on a budget. I felt bad not letting them spend freely. Note to self - shall not do the same again.

In any case, except myself and my brother, they went on a second holiday to Bali in end Nov. Both of us were not able to go due to our work and leave problems.

Meanwhile, I got offered a position under NLB for a librarian. During the interview, I had a tamil interaction portion. It was so awkward cause it was someone I know. Haha, but it's okay my tamil is not in the dumps! I rejected it though cause after some thoughts, I think I wouldn't want to work in shifts anymore.

And in June itself, I went for MOE interview after the longest time ever. I applied for the third time now I think. I got offered by them too. But it was quite late.i think it was about mid august? I felt that I shoud stay on in my current job to work in shifts as it will be of help to my mum as she has to take take of four kids after my sister returns to work in August onwards. Besides, I also started to doubt myself on taking the role of a teacher to handle so many children in one class. The flashback of my relief teaching stints doesn't make me feel so confident to be a teacher. I'm worried if I will be able to deliver and help the children to the best of my ability. And whether I will be able to control the class and get things done.
After all these thoughts, I rejected it as well. I still feel a tinge of regret till now as I feel that I should not give up before I try. But situations just happened as well. I may just re-apply in future and hope I will be given an opportunity then. I really want to be a teacher...maybe when I get to be a teacher one day, I will have the full confidence to handle them on my own. (:(:

  Fast forward to December, I went for my first facial with Shams and Kavita at Goodday. :D:D
We went for the basic aloe vera facial. Set us back by about $50. The price and experience was alright. But I guess you need to constantly go for facial to see differences.

Besides that, compared to how I started, I'm much more comfortable in my office. I know more people and I love the feeling of being so familiar.


Signing Offff
31.01.2015
10.58pm.






First song ever!

As random as I always am, I was inspired to write a song today.. I've thought of doing it before but didnt actually get down to it. This time I managed to come up with something & hope it turned out alright ya.. Btw, it sounds more like a poem than a song but I wish I could strum in a tune for this though. :D

Us together by Naphalisia


Those walks in the park never seem like what it used to be,
Without you, it just never seemed right especially for me
I want you to know that the memories we shared were never done
And now that you're gone, I'll never know now what it could have been for you & I

Chorus:
I believe in fate that tied us together
You are my mate that I'll treasure even now & forever
In my life, it has never been a dream come true
But when it comes to you it's been so real, so surreal
It's like I just walked out of my dreams to see you.

I remember you once told me how much you loved me
I didn't know if it was real or if you meant it then
but it was then that I started falling so deep and strong that nothing else would matter
 So baby, why don't you feel the same now when I am still the same now and then?

The past has flashed passed and I am still here waiting for the moment
Where you'll turn back and know not all is lost.
 Its a rollercoaster ride but it will be worth the wait in the haven
So baby we'll make it work, you know that we will, at all costs.