I'm feeling troubled. I just ended my 4 day working stint at expo as of fri the eighteenth of june. I should admit it was a very different experience for me. I particularly loved the fact that although it was the same procedure to be done for the 4 days, it felt different each day seeing a different lot of people each day. I was thankful for the job since it was my first official one during this holidays. We had to wear black formal wear each day and the best part was coming in contact with all the big shots from small to big companies. It makes me wonder if I'll ever get to be one of them or come into contact with them ever again. Apart from the job itself, I think I can also claim that I did make friends. (: Although to some I didn't really talk everyday. anyway it doesnt matter right? since we're probably nv gonna see each other again aft the 4 days. Maybe I would see 1-2 of them in school to whom we'll just acknowledge each other with barely a smile.
And haha. I almost forgot I was feeling troubled. Well, in my 4 days there that I was working with someone, I realised how insensitive people might get. Okay maybe she doesn't realise but her comments about how 'black' I am makes me wonder if I am supposed to be inferior to her because of my colour. After she always says her piece of insensitive comments, she'll also add on that she doesn't mean it. I actually kinda understand that she doesn't think it's a big deal and my strong front makes her feel less guilty to continue commenting. Honestly, I am not taking it personally because it is just not only her. I have come across quite a few, some of them even commenting on people they do not even know. It is utterly rude. This is Singapore and we cannot keep saying that we are a multi-racial country if our own people cannot accept each other's differences. I am pouring out what I've been feeling for very long and it is not because I want to embarass or make her feel guilty.

I want to make a shoutout to all like-minded "superior" people that we cannot decide how we want to be. If I am dark-skinned, there is nothing I can do about it because it's God's will. You can count your lucky stars since you're born fairer. But this doesn't give you any right to put us down and make us feel small. Even strong people might cave in to insensitive remarks by you people.

It's 2am ans here i am in my blog. Normally i have so much things to say but will be lazy to log into here.. but this time i almost have nothing to say but i am here.

Anyways, todayy.*27th mAY 2010. Marks the 20th birthday of one of my JC bestie's birthdayy! In fact, I logged into here after being on the phone for 2 hours from 12 to 2. Poor Vaish...she was talking on her mobile! :((( So yupps.2 hours to catch up on what was happening in each other's life.... which basically meant i had almost nth to share!

So other than the 2 hours talk with them... Ermmm i also went out! To collect specs for mum and then went to the tailor's at bukit purmei... gotta strong feeling she's gonna screw sth somewhere... but well, no other alternativesss.... grrrr!!

Oh ya.. today seemed like the jobs were just rolling in from everywhere.... first was from carine, den from kavita and then from sangeetha. It all had to come in together at the same time!!! haizz.. hope i get sth out of them.

Still havent started on what i wanted to do for holss...... oH NO! :(((((

Module headache??

yupp. impt! Updates on nus year NUMBER ONE!

Modules I took in sem one (AUG-NOV 2009):
1) CM1401 : Chemistry for Life Sciences
2) LSM1301: General Biology
3) SN1101E : South Asia: People, Culture, Development
4) CZ1102: Problem solving and computation
5) LAM1201: Malay 1

The best advice/ lesson i learnt from this combination: DO NOT TAKE UP THE CZ MODULE unless its ur core. If you're the programming type, the module welcomes you with open arms. All the best to you.

Chemistry was tough no doubt but should be very much handleable to get yourself at least a B. Mistake I made was screwing my lab reports and my mid term. Failed my mid terms and nv got past a B for my lab reports but managed to get a C+ for it. Someone i know did better for both the lab report component and mid terms but got a C or C- overall. My point here is that the final paper DOES make a difference.

General Biology. I had to take it as a bridging module as I did not have A level background for biology. I know I ought to do good since it was gonna be my major and stuff. But I guess I took it all too lightly in sem one. final paper was a MCQ which I now feel was a pity to not give it my best shot. Memorising is the key word to tackle this module.

Southasia to me was a stupid module I took bcause my friend took it. (It was the first sem, what do you expect? You don't expect me to go for a lecture alone on the first day right?) If you have no interest in the countries they cover, then don't bother. It will be a bore for you. FASS people will prob take it to fulfil some requirement of theirs. This module requires essay writing too. For mid terms and finals.

Malay. I enjoyed the module. The module that I made the most number of friends in my first semester. Was fun learning languages. I think my tutor was not too good. The one hour tutorial was under Mr Sew. He was not bad but ermm.. he seemed to like the language but didnt really enjoyed his tutorial although his was more comprehensive than my 2 hour tutor of whom I can't remember the name. I can clearly rmb his face but not his name. HUMPH! Some description: a malay man, wears specs, funny but felt that he was wasting both his and our time there.

So yupp. That rounds it. Like finally! God knows when I'm logging in back here again to enter a new entry! Good night!